| I know I'm overly sensitive towards my weight but it's only because YOU made me feel that way.
I just flipped out on my dad cuz he was bitching about my fking salad dressing that I was recently happy to eat cuz it actually tasted good and it was pretty low in calories (balsamic oil and vinegar) and telling me how eating two much of it will make me gain weight etc. I just couldnt handle anymore fking comments I srsly am so angry that punching him would actually make me feel justice. I want him to feel what it's like not to be skinny or have control of your weight. I want him to hurt and feel the pain he's caused me with his dumbass comments each time he's made towards my weight my looks and how he runs his mouth to my family. I really am considering moving out nowadays. My self esteem is just pathetic. I am sadly one of those people who would want more than anything to be thin because of stupid society and my stupid family and my growing up. I hate how stupid I sound but it's always been something that's made me different and I guess excluded or outcasted in this family. Even though I doubt I would be any more accepted if I was thin anyways. I don't know why I was born this way, I wish I wasnt tbh. It's prb cuz I'm in such a shitty mood after the stupid argument that I am way deep sad.
Gonna cry it out and scream in my pillow.
Tttyl. |
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| You haven't met mine:
Complete opposites I tell ya.
You watch the show hoarders it's like that but you have one who's hoarding and the other who's a mega clean person.
Fk me! I can't wait to move out that's all I can say!!! |
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| Currently in class...getting my mind blown. Everything the prof is saying is just blowing right OVER my head. I am also feeling hella nauseous I really feel like barfing?
I really need something to entertain me. Trying to lose some extra lbs before my trip to cuba, hopefully doing well so I look good on vacay! I think I'm going to really bomb this test that's all.
-Aiya |
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| I haven't blogged on xanga for such a long time...probably been around 2 years give or take? Update on life right now: - Count down to my trip to Cuba is in a month :D
- Tried blogging on the iphone...IT does NOT work!
- Invisaligns are showing a huge improvement!
- Watching and caught up on all of my Naruto episodes =D
- Finished but not quite finished in bartending school...
- Working lots
- Still the same me...I would think.
Follow me on twitter if you want more up to date updates haha. Be back in awhile gotta get ready for class! |
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| http://love.givesmehope.com/top
Addicted to this site, and have gotten some emotional eyes to some of the entries.
I want something earth shattering someday. I am willing to wait for something worthwhile.
If you've ever watched P.S I love you, that movie is so inspiring and beautiful.
I want to know that true love exists and that it is achievable even now.
I believe someday it can happen to me, and if not than I will have my friends and family. |
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